6 December 2023
Today marks two years since you abandoned the girl you once promised to marry, the girl you imagined a home and children with. It feels insane how time moves so quickly when the wounds you left behind are still bleeding like they were made yesterday. Three weeks ago, I had to walk into the psychiatrist ward because I relapsed. again. I ended up with a doctor I used to find frightening because I remembered her scolding other patients. I thought she would scold me too for breaking down again. But to my surprise, she did not. She spoke to me so softly, as if she knew I was already standing at the edge of a blade and that one more inconvenience could push me into ending everything. She asked me about you and about us. " When did you guys break up? " she asked. I chuckled. " Two years ago. " Because honestly, who would not laugh at the absurdity of grieving a relationship that died two years back, grieving it so deeply that it almost cost me my life again after all this...